♥ Thursday, August 11, 2005
My Complicate Life ♥
Holidays..Yepp.I had a long weekends this week.Haha. 9-10 August! Singapore National Day's holidays.Urgh I am really really tired of studying in Singapore.So much HW and projects to do but so little time I have.Hehs.How can I solve this problems?? I knoe that I can be more dilligent and use time properly.Never waste my time. However, I am just a teenager.Kid.I need to relax.To play and go shopping.Children must go to school.Adult must go to work.Then when can I relax and enjoy my time my life.That's why I always thought of "what's the meaning of life?" or "why shld I live?" Silly questions huh.But I guess only God can answer.((: I am sure He has smth for us (human) to do in life.Sometimes I really feel that I dun belongs to anywhere.Although I have families,really nice friends and etc but I still feel that there's smth wrong.Yeah nobody is perfect and satisfied.Human are selfish people.((: I just feel I am lonely alone.I might have best friends but they are just couldn't understand me well and I still feel lonely or feel that I do wrong things to them.Hurt them.Etc..I really am confused.Bleahs.Bah.Haiz.Pucink!!!Pucink!!!Belom ma masalah adek gw jg.Gw seneng adek gw dtg tp ga nyangka jd repot jg.Nambah beban.Tp dia tuch bs bener2 helpful.Help me.Accompany me.I do like her.Love her.Haha.My only sister.((: Potato couch or couch potato!?Dun care.Talk rubbish.My mind is nowhere.Haha.Joking.I am sleepy.Gotta sleep now.Dun care abt anything else.Urusan besok sebaiknya diurus besok drpd gw jd stress and gila.Just enjoy my day.whee!Miss everybody that really cares abt me.Wonder when I can have someone who will stay beside me,stay by my side,comfort me,always there when I need her/him and blablabla.Tee Hee.GooD NiTez everyone!Love,JaNeT #17
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♥ Sunday, August 07, 2005
My Complicate Life ♥
I am alone at home rite now.Everybody is going to Ci Ica's party I guess.Except me.Yeah I'm all alone.I admit it that I feel lonely but I would rather stay at home than going to the party.I am not a girl.I mean feminime.Fine!!!Argh.I really hate this kind of situation.I miss my Amsen's friends.Indo friends.They're all the best.Haha.Guess wat!?Almost all the girl who are going to Ci Ica's party are wearing black gown.I shld say that they all are very pretty.With high heel shoes somemore.I don't belongs there.I know that some of them are really nice to me but I am just lazy to go.No in the mood.No interest today.Sorry.I am so sorry..Ci Ica-> HappY sWeeT 17! bleahs.HAIZ.Mel went Brunei this morning.She'll be back in Spore on 10 August.She goes there with school.I am not going.Haha.Feel a bit lonely without her.((:Today is FLAG DAY.I was helping the Singapore Cancer Society this morning to raise fund.My school was collecting donation on the streets.There were also other schools.Persaingan yang ketat.Hehehe.Sam was cute.Haha.Dunno why.I am damn malu la.She opened my gallery [phone] and saw my pic with my sister wearing the "baju tali leher" yg diikat di leher.We took pic of our back.Damn malu can.She even said:"Nvm.Dont need to be embarrased.Pretty wat." Yeah smth abt that.She crazy ah.Wat pretty.Fat..Haha.SiYi is very annoying la.Call me 'jie jie'.Walawe.I dun wanna be your 'jie jie'.Wat kind of 'mei mei' is she if keep beating me and disturb me and mock me.Elsa is somehow better.Bleahs.I am so tired and sick of this.Okay everybody just laugh at me.Mock me.Say bad things to me.Make me feel that nobody loves me.Likes me.Cares abt me.Make me feel lonely.Dont ever bother abt me.Yeah..I am only shy fat stupid notfriendly kiasu egois blablablabla.Watever d.I really dun care.Leave me alone!!!!!Last Saturday I gave the CD to Luying.She is so cute.Haha.I have no face to go PS anymore.Malu2in..Haha.Then at night I dreamt abt her again.Hehs.When can I forget her.((:Err wat else shld I write?Dunno lar.No mood alr.Haha.I will just eat and watched VCDs/DVDs and play computer.Har Har.Bubbye..JaNeT~LoNeLy GirL~
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