♥ Sunday, April 03, 2005
My Complicate Life ♥
Let me talk abt the good things first.Firstly,Luying's birthday is coming and I haven't choose any present for her.Maybe don't need ah.Haha.Secondly,my birthday is also coming.One week after Luying's birthday.Whee.But I still want to be young.I also hope that I can be the youngest.Haiz.Oh yeah,SYF is coming.8th of April.How?I'm so scared.I really hope choir can get at least bronze.If can silver.=)God Bless Us.I have a lot of bad things to talk about.I guess my head,I mean inside my head is going to explode alr.So many things to do.Either HW or PW.Some more I am so FAT.Damn it.Must diet.But am I able to do it.I damn malu la.Haiz.Horrible.The next thing is...I realised that it's hard to find a true friend.Who can really understand me.My childhood friends are nice.But it seems that we are not as close as last time.As you know,I am shy and we are in different place now so ya..That's what happened to us.My best buddies in primary school are nice also.Some of them still contact me.Haha.Nice of you all.Really appreciate it.Hope we can be friends foreva.Hmm my amsen's friends and EF friends are nice also.They are very kind.Too bad I am too shy la.Everytime just keep quiet.That's why I seldom keep in touch with them.Hehe.But some of them still la.Like Vera,Vengky,Eka,Vania,Bustamin,dll.My friends in STC are nice also.Some of them might be irritating la.Haiz.Some of them are quite close with me but still there's something that separate us.I can feel it.Why am I so shy?I cant understand myself.=( But anw I think Lupita is the nicest.Dunno why.I feel comfortable with her.I feel she can understand me quite well.Is it only my feeling?But nvm.She's one of them (my best friends) who can understand me.Of course there might be somebody else.I am going to the point now.I mean about my title.It's because there is this girl who is really irritating.I cant stand it anymore.Wanna be my friend or best friend?But don't want to try to understand me.Then what should I do?Keep be patient and allow you to argue with me everytime.I always tried to understand you but what did you do?Make me angry.Argue with me.Selfish.I know I might have bad characteristics but at least I have tried to hide it.In fact,I show you all my bad characteristic which you don't like.It's not what I want but what can I do?You are the one who made me show it to you.Don't you know that you actually have bad characteristics?Then why can't you be more patient with me just like what I always tried to do.I am not sure if our friendship will last long.I know sometimes I feel lonely,scared or useless without you.Although you hurt me everytime,I always tried to ignore it and be nice in front of you.It's hard.I really cant stand it anymore.You always accuse me but actually you done that too.Haiz.I dunno la.I want to forget it.I think we cant be best friend forever if we keep quarelling like this.We are lack of understanding,trustworthy and helpfulness.Waah so long already.Tired.Sorry my english is not that good.Haha.I wanna relax now.Mom,Dad,Sista,my families and my nice friends...Miss you all.J.a.N.e.T #17
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